I swear to God, if it's not one thing stressing me the eff out, it's another. And maybe it's my fault, because I put up with so much like an idiot. I'm so close to the edge and I am about to combust.
I hate relying on people, I hate not being able to just take care of things on my own and I'm to the point where I KNOW I am an independent person, where the hell did I go?? When did I turn into this girl who relies on other people like some weakling. Having other people make decisions that I'm not 100% on board with, or not saying anything when I don't want something or don't agree with something. So, what's the answer? Am I a good person because I do what's expected from me? and I don't ask questions and I am doing what I said I would, even if I'm miserable? Or am I stupid because I put up with shit I shouldn't have to?
"The definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results."
Apparently I'm insane.
...I think I'm ready for sanity now....
